I wish!!!

I wish ... Life would be different..
I wish .. I would be different..
I wish ... Wishes would be different...

But would the different life, different me and different wishes... make me a better person... will I ever be happy... will I ever know what I want ... will I ever enjoy being my self... will I be just me... Just the inner me.. who wants to live life in her own sky... her own roles... her own life!!

Will I ever be able to clean the mirror of being me from the fog of responsibility.. bond .. social life... and will I ever see the real me who knows what exactly she wants ...

My wish is to be... just me!!!

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Its been a long time ... I have not written anything... or I can say .. I haven't had conversation with myself... Few things just happen in life... and at times I feel what I did was wrong .... I hurted few people .. badly .. very badly... but that was never intentional .. I was just not sure what I want from my life . am still not sure... At times... I feel ... am so ruthless.. aimless... have not done anything big with my life .. why ?? everything is so complicated for me ... why I don't have clear picture of whatever I want ... I wish I had time machine ... I could go back and forth .. make things right ... take right decision's at right time .... Is everyone's life so complex... do people really know.. what they want .. or they just struggle and fight with them self to make things right ...